what hes missed goes all the way back to when he was too young to even think for himself. left kudos on this work! but somehow, its just always my fault, right?, no i never said that tommy please, i promise. 5. tommy did anyone notice all my titles being taylor songs?! being bibeing who i am- it's so important to me and who i am, and by hiding who i'm with, it feels like i'm losing that part of me," he took a deep breath, tears threatening to fall from his eyes, "and i just can . 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While we've done our best to make the core functionality of this site accessible without javascript, it will work better with it enabled. Touching him was like realizing all you ever wanted was right there in front of you Memorizing him was as easy as knowing all the words to your old favorite song Fighting with him was like trying to solve a crossword and realizing there's no right answer Regretting him was like wishing you never found out that love could be that strong [Chorus:] this character is very much based on someone from my real life, so yeah, enjoy!! in a desperate attempt to control his breathing, he fell to the ground, his body formed a small shaking ball on the ground. at june or really, in any situation. Its only rational to stop whatever theyre doing, but what if someone helped Tony realize that he may have feelings as well? now youre crying, are you serious? he swiftly moved passed henry when he opened the door, his brain moving 100 miles per hour. and besides, i said i was sorry, what more could you want from me. alexs heart wholly broke. he had been on edge all day and this just tipped him right over. when he finally got a moment alone with liam in his room, he pushed liam off of him in the middle of their kiss, and crossed his arms around himself. the same barista coming around the counter after alex had sat down at a table, sitting right across from him. although it was obvious they had something special, liam wasnt out yet, and they could only meet in secrecy. he didnt deserve that comfort. june probably wouldnt have heard him if not for their proximity. tip: "sherlock (tv)" m/m NOT "sherlock holmes/john watson", 1. ellen and oscar it was his last first day of high school and it was so important to him. i love you so bloody much it hurts. this chapter hurt so much more because it hits close to home. he had been on edge all day and this just tipped him right over. no. But I'm assuming he couldn't keep going because it's not what he really wanted. which was definitely way to fast. Summary: 5 times alex was rejected the touch he needed + 1 time henry gave it to him. alex glanced at the dinner now abandoned, now cold, sitting on the table, i ruined your plans for tonight, he croaked, looking up at henry with wet eyes. We bring you the song's Touching Him Was Like Realizing All You Ever Wanted Chords sung by Taylor Swift. why? for most of the names called he zoned out, just barely making out the syllables coming out of his principles mouth, but once he heard liams name he was suddenly self aware. did anyone notice all my titles being taylor songs?! hes assuming he said something because thats what henry did. loving him was red alex please. Lyrics Forsongs808 20 subscribers Subscribe 661 45K views 5 years ago Song:Unknown Show. alex met tommy his first year at college at a bar. While we've done our best to make the core functionality of this site accessible without javascript, it will work better with it enabled. thatsamebarista throwing herself at him from across the table. he took off running up the stairs, passed june, straight into his room, diving under the covers. for most of the names called he zoned out, just barely making out the syllables coming out of his principles mouth, but once he heard liams name he was suddenly self aware. you cannot possibly be getting upset over this! he was absolutely heartbroken. 4. liam once he saw his dad make his way towards the front door saying something along the lines of picking up his bags tomorrow while the kids are at school, he bolted up, running to meet his dad at the door. he immediately pushed his arms to wrap around himself, letting his tears fall freely, sobs shaking his shoulders against the couch. this character is very much based on someone from my real life, so yeah, enjoy!! his head hurt, and all he really wanted to do was go to sleep. just talk to me.. alex looked into his eyes, the joy in his eyes from before now replaced with shame. it was 10:47. way past the time he should've been in bed and asleep, but through the hushed shouts coming from the kitchen and june's sobs next door, sleep just seemed impossible to him. alex had dumped so much on him at once he didnt know how to process it. Losing him was blue like I've never known Missing him was dark grey all alone Forgetting him was like trying to know somebody you never met But loving him was red Yeah red Touching him was like realizing all you ever wanted was right there in front of you Memorizing him was as easy as knowing all the words to your old favorite song if alex didnt feel the pleasure he felt he should have in this moment, he doesnt tell anyone. henry would hate him. as well as While we've done our best to make the core functionality of this site accessible without javascript, it will work better with it enabled. he let a few of his tears fall, abruptly looking away, violently wiping at his eyes. he immediately leapt off the stage, pushing his way through the crowds of people, taking as large of steps as he could to make it over there. you know thats not what i think, i never said that-. . An annotation cannot contain another annotation. trying to know somebody you've never met that should be a series tbh. just because i get with other people sometimes doesnt mean i dont care about you. he cocooned himself in his blankets, the energy of his sobs tiring him out, and carrying him off to sleep. he glanced around at everyone standing by them and thankfully, him and liam had gone unnoticed by liams parents, but alex knew he had to be more careful. Please consider turning it on! im not mad per se, i just would have never said any of this stuff to you. i was talking alex! Summary: . i am really enjoying writing this. sure henry hugs him on a daily, and he holds alex when theyre sleeping, but its never like this. When Steve and Tony casually exchanged handjobs because they couldn't sleep, they thought it would be one-time only. he held alex. and i know how hard it is to come out, but its been 3 years. Or not all he wanted. even when he hastily threw his body back, his eyes wide and almost scared, she still didnt seem to get the hint. you did not deserve this, at all. alex finally gets the comfort he needs in his times of hurt. Report illegal content. nora doesnt let him talk about it. regretting him was like no. the hushed shouts were not as quiet as they thought they were. because if so, yes alex. they were, and still are, polar opposites which alex believes is what makes them work so well together. he just couldnt help it, never getting the feeling of comfort in moments like these, and all he could do in turn is be angry at the world. 2. june henry would hate him. wishing you never found out love could be that strong the girl, jordan, either did not hear him or just did not care because she stayed planted in her seat. once your already flying through the freefall why would it be your fault? contrary to what alex thought hed see, henry did not look angry or upset, but more supportive than ever. alex didnt know nora hated him so much. im sorry.. alex stayed with tommy for another full 2 months before june forced alex to break up with him after hearing one of their fights during holiday break. but loving him was red "don't. don't touch me. he looked around briefly for liam, but instead he was greeted by a girl, he saw by the juniors days ago. i know you are going through so so much right now but do you know how hard it was- how hard it was for me to find my 17 year old brotherblack out drunk on a park bench in the rain. alex looked down at his socked feet, kicking it back and forth on junes carpet. theres a feeling alex cant find when hefinallygets the comfort hes been waiting for all this time. he moves towards alex, putting his hands around alexs bicep. he let the feeling of grief overtake him until he was able to push himself up and onto his bed. as well as you have not been a bad husband to me in any way. he was now aware of his body shaking and the tears rolling down his cheeks. henry im sorry. sorry yeah actually- im saving it for a friend, he mumbled, looking back down at the table. when he got home, his first instinct was the invite nora over, hoping for some positive reinforcement from her. i pushed them off but i still feel gross, but its all my fault.. but loving him was red. or as well as they could work. 3. nora a little while did turn into 45 minutes but neither alex or henry quite honestly cared. no you didnt, we can simply push them back an hour, or reschedule them to tomorrow. i messed up, his voice a whisper, i got scared because youve been so so good to me lately but i've beensuch a bad husband. it wasnt a big deal. 15-jun-2021 - CARMELINA (@likemilknhoney) added a photo to their Instagram account: "Touching him was like realizing all you ever wanted was right there in front of you Memorizing him" 95 guests he practically melted into the couch, making himself look smaller than he actually was. [Verse 1: Ally & Normani] Loving him is like driving a new Maserati. [Verse 1: Ally & Normani]Loving him is like driving a new MaseratiDown a dead-end streetFaster than the wind, passionate as sinEnding so suddenlyLoving him is like trying to change your mindOnce youre already flying through the free fallLike the colors in autumn, so brightJust before they lose it all, [Chorus: All & Lauren]Losing him was blue like Id never knownMissing him was dark grey, all aloneForgetting him was like trying to know somebody you never metBut loving him was red, red, redBut loving him was red, red, redBut loving him was red, red, red, red, red, red, [Verse 2: Camila & Dinah]Touching him was like realizing all you ever wantedWas right there in front of youMemorizing him was as easy as knowingAll the words to your old favorite songFighting with him was like trying to solve a crosswordAnd realizing theres no right answerRegretting him was like wishing you never found outThat love could be that strong, [Chorus: All & Lauren]Losing him was blue like Id never knownMissing him was dark grey, all aloneForgetting him was like trying to know somebody you never metBut loving him was red, red, redBut loving him was red, red, redOohhh burning red, red, red, red, red, red, [Bridge: Camila & [Normani] & (Lauren) & Dinah & {Ally} & All]Remembering him comes in flashbacks {flashbacks} [and echoes](Tell myself its time now) time now, gotta let go{But moving on from} him is impossibleWhen I still see it all in {my head}, [Chorus: Lauren & All & (Ally)]Losing him was blue like Id never knownMissing him was dark grey, all aloneForgetting him was like trying to know somebody (you never met)But loving him was red, red, red (was red)But loving him was red, red, red (was red)But loving him was red, red, red, red, red, red (red red), [Outro: Ally & All]Loving him is like driving a new MaseratiDown a dead-end street. he tried not to dwell on it, but he believed if june had found him dead rather than black out drunk, she would be so much more relived. the argument was promptly finished with a resounding slap echoing through the house. the hushed shouts were not as quiet as they thought they were. believe it or not, i dont spend all my time around you just because i feel bad for you, he mumbles, his tone suggesting in a way that he doesonly hang around alex because he feels bad for him. we arent exclusive, or dating. not one bit. alex has no one there for him in the aftermath. nora doesnt let him talk about it. forever, henry confirmed, and always., READ THIS LISTENING TO LOOK AFTER YOU - THE FRAY!!! youve been doing such big things and i understand its going to take up some more time. just before they lose it all Natasha sighed, but her gaze turned soft when she watched him closely. ill do it for you.. he was almost sure he did. he ignored the scolding coming from his mom about how he should be in bed. tommy simply just stared at alex. and if you possibly think, in any world, that this would make me stop loving youthat i could ever stop loving you at all, then you are sorely mistaken, henry smiled, pulling alex into his arms. tip: katekyou "alternate universe" sort:>words, Alex Claremont-Diaz/Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor, Alex Claremont-Diaz & June Claremont-Diaz, Alex Claremont-Diaz/Original Male Character(s), Alex Claremont-Diaz Loves Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor, Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor Loves Alex Claremont-Diaz, Married Alex Claremont-Diaz/Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor. alex wished he could just get swallowed by a hole in the floor right now. left kudos on this work! and that's why he's spinning round in my head he held alex. trying to change your mind he then allowed tommy to drag him to the bedroom and allowed tommy to take him. pretty much right away, every student was on their feet, rushing to find each other, or moving to find their families who were now slowly shuffling out of the bleachers, or the small few who held out hope in still finding their cap. i know. "i love you so bloody much it hurts. im sorry, he whispered, his eyes glossy. About the project, i hate to be the bearer of bad news but your life isnotas bad as you make it seem and youre so overdramatic, cant it ever be about me? alex wanted to cry. 4. liam missing him was dark gray all alone burning red Ending so suddenly. hes assuming he said something because thats what henry did. im not the best with love either, i was raised in a loveless household. Please consider turning it on! it was then he realized he had never stopped his mumbles of stop and please and no.. alex fell asleep with his hands clutching his blanket against his chest, and some lotion june had rubbed on his cheek only a few moments before, making the injury sting more than he thinks it should. it is super unlikely that the people in alexs life did not hug him on a regular basis, but im a sucker for angst so. do youEVERthink of anyone besides yourself? henrys soft voice cut through the silence, what do you want love? his voice was nothing more than a whisper. he heard his dad say goodbye to june, then stopping at him whispering, goodbye mijo, te amo.. Touching him is like realizing all you ever wanted was right there infront of you - YouTube My baby My baby AboutPressCopyrightContact. he pulled them up over his head, covering his ears, letting out soft sobs into the silent air. All Rights Reserved 2023.. Free Theme By, Touching Him Was Like Realizing All You Ever Wanted Chords, How Could We Ever Just Be Friends I Would Rather Die Than Let You Go Chords, Alapatra Chords | Sajjan Raj Vaidya | Yabesh Thapa. he cocooned himself in his blankets, the energy of his sobs tiring him out, and carrying him off to sleep. he dug his nails into his skin drawing blood from the crescent shaped scars on his palms. but everything in his gut shifted when he saw the way liam beamed at him with joy mid speech. nora quickly made her way out of the claremont household, leaving alex alone with his thoughts. While we've done our best to make the core functionality of this site accessible without javascript, it will work better with it enabled. forgetting him was like 3. nora okay, we always talk about you, and its always about your problems. Memes | Lyrics | TikTok Trends | Instagram Filters. instead, with the sounds of alexs pleads of sorry and please forgive me, and one last final push, june, close to yelling, GET OUT!. she just stared at him, he could almost see the gears turning in her head. loving him was red you have not been a bad husband to me in any way. touching him was like he looked up, his gaze slowly meeting junes, watching her eyes soften around the edges. i just miss him, alex whispered, his voice barely audible. you cant just interrupt me like that, its rude. dont touch me. alex melted into the kiss for a moment, pulling away when henry did. 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